[It's easy to loathe divinity. Perfection so sweet-hot it burns you from the inside out, retinas first (then lungs, then frigid pulse, then sinew and cold reata). Maybe it's only envy— maybe it's something more, akin to being too primitive in nature to begin to comprehend with acute thought. Every sense too awestruck in the moment. Reduced to nothing but a feral animal bristling on approach from what it doesn't understand: terrified and captivated by that dry-mouthed fear. Wanting the meal it knows it'd choke on. Salivating for it, in fact.
That's where he is, now.
Up to his neck in that sick-sweet envy. That dizzying, awestruck, primordial paralysis— heralded by darkened eyes and so much satisfaction that it spills from closed-off lips. Pale, thick, glaze richly overrun, shining on the swell of Fenris' smug (dazed) mouth; stars glinting in an unfixed stare that still somehow manages to find Astarion despite it all: the look of a cat already yanked away even as it licks honeyed cream from its own muzzle. So proud of its own conquest.
And on the other hand: all Astarion knows is that same yawning darkness.
That vertigo. That wicked, entranced, covetous, hungry, hateful sense of whatever it is that surges upwards in his chest once his back drops down against the mattress, blistering in his veins and molten as it blots out all his sight (but that face— oh, but that pretty, comeslick face— ) deliberate in how his claws flex despite already having lost their grip— searching for a new handhold worth puncturing inside the fitful cage of his own skin.
A single snap.
A single surge in the language of a trap sprung around its prey— fingers clamping closed around slight hips until crimson starts to well, too late now to turn back while he wrenches against the grain until Fenris grinds along his drooling cock. Too late five minutes ago— ten minutes ago. Twenty. Too late the second his sire walked in with a pretty young thing on his arm that only bowed to one creature rather than two. So close and wrapped around him and spread out wide for ripened taking, no doubt imagining he's won (without knowing that their hold on each other suddenly runs both ways). A cruel victor seated on his unslaked throne. Oh, Fenris. Oh, little wolf already in a snare. Astarion's going to bite. He's going to bite until you wail and tear and— ]
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That's where he is, now.
Up to his neck in that sick-sweet envy. That dizzying, awestruck, primordial paralysis— heralded by darkened eyes and so much satisfaction that it spills from closed-off lips. Pale, thick, glaze richly overrun, shining on the swell of Fenris' smug (dazed) mouth; stars glinting in an unfixed stare that still somehow manages to find Astarion despite it all: the look of a cat already yanked away even as it licks honeyed cream from its own muzzle. So proud of its own conquest.
And on the other hand: all Astarion knows is that same yawning darkness.
That vertigo. That wicked, entranced, covetous, hungry, hateful sense of whatever it is that surges upwards in his chest once his back drops down against the mattress, blistering in his veins and molten as it blots out all his sight (but that face— oh, but that pretty, comeslick face— ) deliberate in how his claws flex despite already having lost their grip— searching for a new handhold worth puncturing inside the fitful cage of his own skin.
A single snap.
A single surge in the language of a trap sprung around its prey— fingers clamping closed around slight hips until crimson starts to well, too late now to turn back while he wrenches against the grain until Fenris grinds along his drooling cock. Too late five minutes ago— ten minutes ago. Twenty. Too late the second his sire walked in with a pretty young thing on his arm that only bowed to one creature rather than two. So close and wrapped around him and spread out wide for ripened taking, no doubt imagining he's won (without knowing that their hold on each other suddenly runs both ways). A cruel victor seated on his unslaked throne. Oh, Fenris. Oh, little wolf already in a snare. Astarion's going to bite. He's going to bite until you wail and tear and— ]