[ old losses shutter his expression. he studies some point in the air. the ghosts of years linger at the edges of his vision. ]
Not as long as I should have. [ those first few years had been awful. not like the ones that followed were any better. but those ones right after… luke, vanished. ben, responsible. they, made to look at themselves and wonder what went wrong. if only they hadn't sent him away. if only they had understood him better. if only.
if he had a credit for every what if he nursed, he could buy his own system. han shakes his head as if trying to disperse the memories. ]
It would have been longer if it hadn't been for that droid. [ "that droid" that needs no name. only half the galaxy was looking for it. ]
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Not as long as I should have. [ those first few years had been awful. not like the ones that followed were any better. but those ones right after… luke, vanished. ben, responsible. they, made to look at themselves and wonder what went wrong. if only they hadn't sent him away. if only they had understood him better. if only.
if he had a credit for every what if he nursed, he could buy his own system. han shakes his head as if trying to disperse the memories. ]
It would have been longer if it hadn't been for that droid. [ "that droid" that needs no name. only half the galaxy was looking for it. ]