"...I'd intended to supplement it," he confesses, his eyeline shifting between some unfixed point on the ground between them and the sight of Fenris working, piece by careful piece, through the full depth of his own pain. It's guilt, or looks like it at least, written in the downturned corners of Astarion's tightly drawn mouth.
His sleeves are far too stained; no amount of wiping makes him look any less monstrous this time.
"With animals, as always— but the journey yesterday took longer than I expected. I didn't have it in me to hunt before turning in."
Pointless explanations, as childish sounding to his own ears as something circling the drain, and his lip curls itself disdainfully as he shoves past it entirely:
"They lied to you. Those two."
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"It doesn't matter," Fenris murmurs, voice deep with pain and frustration. What doesn't matter? Astarion's mistakes? Their watchful combatants? Fenris does not know how to forgive. He is always the one making mistakes, or enacting revenge against those who have wronged him. What to do with this delicate vibrancy between them? How to keep it safe?
It doesn't matter.
"Where are the rest of them?" Fenris' hand leaves his bloodied neck, reaching for the hilt of his sword once more.
“Not that— ” he corrects, reaching out to catch Fenris' arm across one heavy gauntlet before he goes stalking about and agitating that wound across his neck. Oh, it'll cease bleeding quickly enough, but as for the pain...
“About their business. What they were doing here.
I could smell it when I awoke. Hunter’s bane, overwhelming— ”
But it’s gone now, he realizes suddenly. The nausea, the cloying sweetness, and he moves quickly to his feet as he stalks closer to the first body, twisting his neck and lifting his nose to the wind, clearly trying to pick up a scent.
And confused in the aftermath.
“No, that’s impossible, I know it was just here.”
Pacing for a beat in frustration, murmuring uselessly, ruddy fingertips pressed to his lips.
“Maybe it was only the hunger. Maybe I wasn’t thinking clearly.”
Not for the first time, Fenris trusts Astarion's instincts better than Astarion does. He twitches his wrist, dislodging Astarion's finely boned hand. Now is no time for touching.
Dreams are vivid things here. Well— they seemed vivid enough in Thedas as well, didn’t they? But for elves in Faerun, things can...carry, and Astarion is still very much what he once was, even in his strangely shifted form of undeath. Maybe Fenris is right to trust his instincts. Maybe Astarion is right to dismiss them. Either way, they’re alive and alone now.
And he’ll take that, folding fingers against his palm in thought.
“Iron-vine, a potent plant. Hunters use it to deter monsters— like myself— the stench of it makes them seem unappetizing at best.” His lips thin out, he moves closer to Fenris, pulling at the buttons of his doublet as his eyes sweep the scene.
“No one uses it for anything else. No one with half a brain, anyway. If they’d had it on them, then they were tracking us, but without it— “
He stares at the second killed, offering a cold shrug of supposition.
“They’re just thieves. Brigands. No one will care.”
Paranoid by nature, Fenris isn't willing to take chances. "I will... deal with the bodies."
He will loot and dismember them, before sending one down the river and setting the other aflame. "This is not a hunch I am willing to ignore."
Stoic in his stubborn belief, he hefts the weapon in his hand as he turns to work on the bodies. This is how he kept himself afloat along the coast, making sure he was incredibly difficult and incredibly frightening to hunt down. He will carve out the same reputation here.
"Far be it from me to dissuade you, then. Indulge away."
It's only a few minutes into whatever grim work Fenris makes for himself, that he might hear the sound of muttered curses somewhere upstream: visible occasionally above the brush is the sight of Astarion, trying to wash the blood from his clothes, his skin, his hair.
It takes longer than corpse dismemberment, apparently, because by the time Fenris is finished, he's still there, hissing insults at stream and silk alike.
Setting someone aflame is easy enough. Picking apart a body so it's both unrecognizable and distinctly horrifying takes care. The vital organs go down the river, the rest is left in a grim lump as though deemed useless for some dark purpose. Hunters-- at least, the hunters Fenris is used to-- have a superstitious mind, bursting with nervous imagination.
And then he finds Astarion, who in turn has found a new thing to be harrowed by.
"How can I help?" Seems a better question than what now? He is still feeling sluggish and impatient with himself, wishing he could recover from the bloodletting quicker.
"It burns is all." He mutters impatiently, more irritated at the lingering gaps between wading out to clean fabric— which is still now faintly tinged pink— than at either the intrusion or offer to help.
And then he turns, that churlishness dispersing just faintly as he measures the exhaustion tucked beneath Fenris' eyes, searching.
"Sit down, and hold this for me. Won't be more than a moment." Said even as he holds out the span of his own damp blouse, knuckles tight before he lets go.
He is tired, but he is alert. Searching angrily around, Fenris asks, "what burnt you? Where?"
He can see the signs of it, finger-light flickers of pink on Astarion's body. It must have been a small flame. But where?
The desire to do as ordered doesn't supersede this concern-- not anymore-- so Fenris' gauntleted hand finds Astarion's shoulder. "Speak to me plainly. I will not be ignorant where your health is concerned."
Gods, he's a weakening sight. All that earnest concern scrawled across fine features, searching for a focal point: something to fight, or to safeguard from, and even in the hellish aftermath of this morning's less-than-ideal circumstances, the smile Astarion finds winding across his lips is all genuine—
Though for Fenris' sake, he does fight to keep it subdued.
"Just...watch, love."
That now freed hand rising as a subtle gesture to keep Fenris still, his attention focused. A segue that makes it easier somehow when he turns, inhaling deep as a brace— and then plunging his head, his bare shoulders, even his chest, into the clearly chilled waters of the creek— growling in pain when he quickly yanks himself back again, shaking off the lingering bloodstains and scorching droplets of water all at once.
"—shit, that hurts—" Wincing, wiping at himself with his palms, slicking most of it away. If nothing else, he's certainly clean now.
Fenris watches, concern only mounting at the conclusion of Astarion's little play. Frowning deeply, he tries to keep himself from any expression Astarion will deem pouting. This, he cannot fix.
"In larger doses. A little mist here or there? Why, it's no problem at all."
What's left clinging to him now stings, but it's hardly anything more than a light prickling sensation crawling along where it catches him— though he imagines he much look a touch ridiculous, faintly flush with color from lingering burns.
"But that won't get anyone clean now, will it? Certainly not after this morning."
And then, with a faint chuckle:
"Not all the benefits of living in your world wanted to stick around for me here, apparently."
Fenris barely attempts to hide his anger; the result is a rage as obvious as it is directionless. He removes his hand so he cannot squeeze at Astarion's shoulder, worried and wounding both at once.
"There must be a better way of doing this. I..." His face screws up into a scowl. "I do not like to see you harmed."
He’d lose, of course, he’s no Cazador in either strength or calculated foresight, but even so, he can’t help thinking it’d be worth it regardless, the corners of his own mouth pulling further into a lopsided look of contentment even as Fenris sinks deeper into distress.
He moves away from Fenris then, shaking out his doublet and leaving it to dry in the sun. The leather couldn’t be soaked and survive without cracking, but he’d wiped it down well enough already.
“What you can do my love, is stay here. Relax. Finish washing that shirt if you want to spare my hands so desperately— but mostly the other two: you’ve given me blood and you’ve saved my neck and I’d say that’s more than enough hard work for one morning.”
Fenris removes his gauntlets, and frowns at the shirt. He doesn't know how to wash clothing. That was never a skill afforded to him. He can wash armor and leathers, but knows how much appearance matters to Astarion. That matter will be dealt with in time.
For now...
For now, Fenris dips his hand in the cool, clear water, and raises it to the back of Astarion's neck. "Does that hurt?"
It’s a tight shiver of a thing, visible in the shudder of scarred shoulders: he wasn’t expecting that, still fussing over his own coat— his neck stretches out long, his toes curling in his boots.
Excuse you, Fenris, do you know what you’re doing?
“I imagine this is what candle wax feels like to you mortals.” Hint hint double hint as he works to regain a little posture, smiling pleasantly regardless. whew.
“But no, it doesn’t hurt. Although I feel compelled to warn you that if you think that’s how we’re going to do all the washing from now on...
...you won’t be walking straight for a week. Or. Ever again, potentially.”
Fenris isn't a babe in the woods; he sees the reaction he's eliciting. Unexpected, but hardly surprising, given how Astarion prefers to take... everything.
A kiss, quick and stolen, pressed to Astarion's high cheekbone, and Fenris is withdrawing. He begins to try and wash the shirt as best he can.
"We'll see," is all he says, voice soft in its depth, knowing.
"For an eternity," Fenris says, missing the jump between casual and painstaking assurances. Still, he's fine alone, moving his hands through quiet water, trying to rid fabric of blood. He does his best-- likely not, he thinks, up to Astarion's standard-- before hanging it out to dry on a tree branch.
Then he waits, meditating on the sound of wilderness around him.
A deer, that’s what he brings back, its listless corpse tucked squarely beneath his arm, looking all the more proud for it.
Oh, it’s true, he’s still fragile under fire when the conditions are right— but he imagines Fenris’ perceptions have been colored by all the limitations he’d had in Thedas, rather than what a true vampire spawn is capable of.
He drops it— bloodless, of course— onto the ground, hands settling low across his hips. Bare-chested and free of all earlier rashing and flushed with intermingled blood, he fancies himself quite the vision. Whether that’s the reality is...debatable, but he’s got the confidence going for him at least.
“As promised. A meal returned— with my thanks.”
If he were kinder, he’d butcher it and cook it to Fenris’ no doubt tired tastes, but he’s done enough already, hasn’t he? This is certainly the height of generosity.
Fenris should chastise him. It's been hours since the attack; they should move. How are they going to butcher a deer in time? Why bring it back? Fenris can get along on less food with less blood in his system; he has before.
(Then again, Danarius always healed the wounds, never wanting his precious pet to be marred in an aesthetically displeasing way. He had a special word for the art of scarring, one Fenris has never bothered trying to translate into Trade. It had always disturbed him somewhat, that Qunlat had an equivalent.)
Yet Fenris is a soft hand with love or lust or whatever lives between them. He only smiles. "We'll have to make quick work of it," Fenris says, pulling out the knife on his belt made for such things. "Or offer the remainder to the god of your choice."
Do they exist? Maybe. Stranger things course their way between realms. But if they do, Astarion figures they don’t pay any attention to the whims of smaller creatures.
He’d spent more than enough years begging them for help in the dark to know better now.
“But I suppose you’re right: we don’t have time to manage the whole carcass— although if you’re not against it, I could make a little scene of the whole thing. Add to your superstitious masterpiece.”
Nothing like a little drama to steer away any nosy strays. His attention wanders, of course, even as he makes his suggestion he’s moving to inspect his drying blouse, finding it— actually in good condition. Not perfect, but with only the ruffles peeking out no one will know any better.
Fenris can go without sleep or eating; Hadriana taught him that ages ago. He'll be tired tonight, but that isn't a terrible thing. The thought of a hot meal, eaten in Astarion's sparkling company, before falling into a deep sleep with Astarion near, the last thing he sees before his eyes close...
It's very heartening.
Fenris snaps off a section of antler before gesturing to the carcass. "As you will. Anyone finding the scene should be thoroughly confused. If these hunters came from a like-minded group, it will throw them."
Why the bloodless deer, and the bloodied bodies? Why did their prey stay so long in the area? Why did no arrows hit their mark? It will leave them searching the area for some time, foolishly trying to attribute a precise meaning to the monsters in their mind. Fenris would almost suggest setting a trap, but he can't see Astarion having the patience for it.
"Still, we should avoid the main roads. Perhaps double back. If needed, I will carry you through streams. It will mask our scent."
It’s a scoff, let out even as he loosely tugs on his blouse, leaving it to hang idly before plucking up whatever Fenris carves off that clearly isn’t needed, like a child picking over supplies for crafts.
“You can’t be serious— we haven’t even gotten to the valley yet, and now you want to add more time onto that over what, a few thieves?”
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His sleeves are far too stained; no amount of wiping makes him look any less monstrous this time.
"With animals, as always— but the journey yesterday took longer than I expected. I didn't have it in me to hunt before turning in."
Pointless explanations, as childish sounding to his own ears as something circling the drain, and his lip curls itself disdainfully as he shoves past it entirely:
"They lied to you. Those two."
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It doesn't matter.
"Where are the rest of them?" Fenris' hand leaves his bloodied neck, reaching for the hilt of his sword once more.
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“About their business. What they were doing here.
I could smell it when I awoke. Hunter’s bane, overwhelming— ”
But it’s gone now, he realizes suddenly. The nausea, the cloying sweetness, and he moves quickly to his feet as he stalks closer to the first body, twisting his neck and lifting his nose to the wind, clearly trying to pick up a scent.
And confused in the aftermath.
“No, that’s impossible, I know it was just here.”
Pacing for a beat in frustration, murmuring uselessly, ruddy fingertips pressed to his lips.
“Maybe it was only the hunger. Maybe I wasn’t thinking clearly.”
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"Tell me what this means. 'Hunter's bane'?"
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And he’ll take that, folding fingers against his palm in thought.
“Iron-vine, a potent plant. Hunters use it to deter monsters— like myself— the stench of it makes them seem unappetizing at best.” His lips thin out, he moves closer to Fenris, pulling at the buttons of his doublet as his eyes sweep the scene.
“No one uses it for anything else. No one with half a brain, anyway. If they’d had it on them, then they were tracking us, but without it— “
He stares at the second killed, offering a cold shrug of supposition.
“They’re just thieves. Brigands. No one will care.”
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He will loot and dismember them, before sending one down the river and setting the other aflame. "This is not a hunch I am willing to ignore."
Stoic in his stubborn belief, he hefts the weapon in his hand as he turns to work on the bodies. This is how he kept himself afloat along the coast, making sure he was incredibly difficult and incredibly frightening to hunt down. He will carve out the same reputation here.
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It's only a few minutes into whatever grim work Fenris makes for himself, that he might hear the sound of muttered curses somewhere upstream: visible occasionally above the brush is the sight of Astarion, trying to wash the blood from his clothes, his skin, his hair.
It takes longer than corpse dismemberment, apparently, because by the time Fenris is finished, he's still there, hissing insults at stream and silk alike.
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And then he finds Astarion, who in turn has found a new thing to be harrowed by.
"How can I help?" Seems a better question than what now? He is still feeling sluggish and impatient with himself, wishing he could recover from the bloodletting quicker.
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And then he turns, that churlishness dispersing just faintly as he measures the exhaustion tucked beneath Fenris' eyes, searching.
"Sit down, and hold this for me. Won't be more than a moment." Said even as he holds out the span of his own damp blouse, knuckles tight before he lets go.
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He can see the signs of it, finger-light flickers of pink on Astarion's body. It must have been a small flame. But where?
The desire to do as ordered doesn't supersede this concern-- not anymore-- so Fenris' gauntleted hand finds Astarion's shoulder. "Speak to me plainly. I will not be ignorant where your health is concerned."
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Though for Fenris' sake, he does fight to keep it subdued.
"Just...watch, love."
That now freed hand rising as a subtle gesture to keep Fenris still, his attention focused. A segue that makes it easier somehow when he turns, inhaling deep as a brace— and then plunging his head, his bare shoulders, even his chest, into the clearly chilled waters of the creek— growling in pain when he quickly yanks himself back again, shaking off the lingering bloodstains and scorching droplets of water all at once.
"—shit, that hurts—" Wincing, wiping at himself with his palms, slicking most of it away. If nothing else, he's certainly clean now.
No bloodied vampire here, thank you.
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"Water burns you?"
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What's left clinging to him now stings, but it's hardly anything more than a light prickling sensation crawling along where it catches him— though he imagines he much look a touch ridiculous, faintly flush with color from lingering burns.
"But that won't get anyone clean now, will it? Certainly not after this morning."
And then, with a faint chuckle:
"Not all the benefits of living in your world wanted to stick around for me here, apparently."
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"There must be a better way of doing this. I..." His face screws up into a scowl. "I do not like to see you harmed."
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Well—
He’d lose, of course, he’s no Cazador in either strength or calculated foresight, but even so, he can’t help thinking it’d be worth it regardless, the corners of his own mouth pulling further into a lopsided look of contentment even as Fenris sinks deeper into distress.
He moves away from Fenris then, shaking out his doublet and leaving it to dry in the sun. The leather couldn’t be soaked and survive without cracking, but he’d wiped it down well enough already.
“What you can do my love, is stay here. Relax. Finish washing that shirt if you want to spare my hands so desperately— but mostly the other two: you’ve given me blood and you’ve saved my neck and I’d say that’s more than enough hard work for one morning.”
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For now...
For now, Fenris dips his hand in the cool, clear water, and raises it to the back of Astarion's neck. "Does that hurt?"
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It’s a tight shiver of a thing, visible in the shudder of scarred shoulders: he wasn’t expecting that, still fussing over his own coat— his neck stretches out long, his toes curling in his boots.
Excuse you, Fenris, do you know what you’re doing?
“I imagine this is what candle wax feels like to you mortals.” Hint hint double hint as he works to regain a little posture, smiling pleasantly regardless. whew.
“But no, it doesn’t hurt. Although I feel compelled to warn you that if you think that’s how we’re going to do all the washing from now on...
...you won’t be walking straight for a week. Or. Ever again, potentially.”
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A kiss, quick and stolen, pressed to Astarion's high cheekbone, and Fenris is withdrawing. He begins to try and wash the shirt as best he can.
"We'll see," is all he says, voice soft in its depth, knowing.
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Confidence becomes him when he’s fed, and he’s no less proud of that fact in this moment as he stalks towards the brush.
“Just a quick hunt, and I’ll be right back.”
Fenris snared breakfast for him not that long ago, perhaps it’s time he returned the favor.
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Then he waits, meditating on the sound of wilderness around him.
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Oh, it’s true, he’s still fragile under fire when the conditions are right— but he imagines Fenris’ perceptions have been colored by all the limitations he’d had in Thedas, rather than what a true vampire spawn is capable of.
He drops it— bloodless, of course— onto the ground, hands settling low across his hips. Bare-chested and free of all earlier rashing and flushed with intermingled blood, he fancies himself quite the vision. Whether that’s the reality is...debatable, but he’s got the confidence going for him at least.
“As promised. A meal returned— with my thanks.”
If he were kinder, he’d butcher it and cook it to Fenris’ no doubt tired tastes, but he’s done enough already, hasn’t he? This is certainly the height of generosity.
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(Then again, Danarius always healed the wounds, never wanting his precious pet to be marred in an aesthetically displeasing way. He had a special word for the art of scarring, one Fenris has never bothered trying to translate into Trade. It had always disturbed him somewhat, that Qunlat had an equivalent.)
Yet Fenris is a soft hand with love or lust or whatever lives between them. He only smiles. "We'll have to make quick work of it," Fenris says, pulling out the knife on his belt made for such things. "Or offer the remainder to the god of your choice."
This strange place has so, so many.
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Do they exist? Maybe. Stranger things course their way between realms. But if they do, Astarion figures they don’t pay any attention to the whims of smaller creatures.
He’d spent more than enough years begging them for help in the dark to know better now.
“But I suppose you’re right: we don’t have time to manage the whole carcass— although if you’re not against it, I could make a little scene of the whole thing. Add to your superstitious masterpiece.”
Nothing like a little drama to steer away any nosy strays. His attention wanders, of course, even as he makes his suggestion he’s moving to inspect his drying blouse, finding it— actually in good condition. Not perfect, but with only the ruffles peeking out no one will know any better.
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It's very heartening.
Fenris snaps off a section of antler before gesturing to the carcass. "As you will. Anyone finding the scene should be thoroughly confused. If these hunters came from a like-minded group, it will throw them."
Why the bloodless deer, and the bloodied bodies? Why did their prey stay so long in the area? Why did no arrows hit their mark? It will leave them searching the area for some time, foolishly trying to attribute a precise meaning to the monsters in their mind. Fenris would almost suggest setting a trap, but he can't see Astarion having the patience for it.
"Still, we should avoid the main roads. Perhaps double back. If needed, I will carry you through streams. It will mask our scent."
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It’s a scoff, let out even as he loosely tugs on his blouse, leaving it to hang idly before plucking up whatever Fenris carves off that clearly isn’t needed, like a child picking over supplies for crafts.
“You can’t be serious— we haven’t even gotten to the valley yet, and now you want to add more time onto that over what, a few thieves?”
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onyxia takes a deep breath
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here's my also tired secret: I didn't even notice lmao
lmao good jOB us
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